Angela Aki – Tegami ~ Haikei Juugo no Kimi



Letter ~ To 15-year-old you

Dear you who are reading this letter:

I wonder where you are and what you’re doing.

15-year-old me has worries that I can’t talk to anyone else about.

If I write this letter to my future self, surely I will be able to honestly and openly express myself.

Whose words should I believe now, when I’m on the edge of losing, on the brink of tears, and on the verge of disappearing? When this heart that I only have one of is constantly being broken to pieces? When I’m living through these difficult years?

Dear 15-year-old you, thank you for you letter. I have some things that I’d like to say to you.

If you keep asking yourself “in which direction should I head?” the answer will come to you

The rough seas of adolescence are harsh, but the ship of your dreams will continue to the riverbank of tomorrow

And when you don’t want to lose, to cry, when you don’t want to disappear, believe in your own voice. And even the adult me has times when I get hurt, even has sleepless nights, but life is bittersweet.

There is meaning to the entirety of one’s life, so follow your dreams without unease; keep on believing.

Whose words should I believe now, when I’m on the edge of losing, on the brink of tears, and on the verge of disappearing? When you don’t want to lose, to cry, when you don’t want to disappear, believe in your own voice. And whatever your age, sorrow can’t always be avoided, but I now try to live my life showing my smiling face.

Dear you who are reading this letter,
I wish good things for you.


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Touching isn’t it? So was I when I first listened to it.

For that 15 year old me..even if its 10 years later or next 20 years

I hope that i will find the answer to the questions I was looking for

So far..

I have found some answers

such as… will I look when I am in my 20’s

not much change like I look like 10 years ago hahaha

So perhaps later in the future I will find more

After all I will always have a lot of question for the rest of my life





*CREDITS TO: Alpha Whiskey Hotel Blog


Belated birthday tribute to Abi…

This post was meant to be published on your birthday,but i guess better late than never..

You always say that i only remember things because it was on the picture’s you took when i was small.

But you forgot, the things caputured by the eyes is also a picture that i kept in my mind while i was growing up..

Here is what i remembered, some things that was not in the pictures we have…

1) You used to read me Peter & Jane sometimes with me sometimes with my brother, and though its only now i realize, that you are not just reading me a story book but actually teaching me english by using a different tone when you stressed out ‘BIG’ and ‘small’ ball when Peter & Jane went to the beach. So much that i grew to love reading, and was excited to be able to read level by level until i can read without spelling the words.

2) When we were in Ellel, you brought us all and hold our hand, hold it so tight and never let my hand go as we cross the road to go to school.  You still hold it tightly even when we cross the road at Sg Petani – that time i was in my primary school. Shows how much you wanted to protect us even if its just about crossing a road.

3) You knew that it will hurt a lot when i did my operations, but you were there every time and wheeled me to the OT room, and waited outside until i have come out from it even if takes hours.And even though it was not necessary to reward me for the pain i had to endure, its the only way that i know you wanted me to at least be happy about to be able to go through it. (But i still claim it anyways hahah)

4) You will give me advices –  though sometimes just about too many of it. But one advice that really strikes me was when you said:

“Why stay hook on one ‘fish’ when you can go ‘fishing’ somewhere else”

That was one of the best advice you ever give whenever i come across those situations. And many other advice when i was down, you helped to push me up back again that even if i was down because of you, i know that later you will bring to a Malay restaurant instead of Mamak so that i will smile again and forget the past.

5) The most thing i remember is how great you were being a dad that i can never stop being thankful for all the things you did.For example, you are reading this in my blog now right? =P

Happy (belated) birthday… (“,)

We can choose our friends but we can’t choose our family. But if i had to choose between friends & family. I will choose family & still choose you 😉

Tribute to a great writer called ‘Anne Frank’

“I finally realized that I must do my schoolwork to keep from being ignorant, to get on in life, to become a journalist, because that’s what I want! I know I can write …, but it remains to be seen whether I really have talent …

And if I don’t have the talent to write books or newspaper articles, I can always write for myself.  But I want to achieve more than that.

I can’t imagine living like Mother, Mrs. van Daan and all the women who go about their work and are then forgotten. I need to have something besides a husband and children to devote myself to!

…I want to be useful or bring enjoyment to all people, even those I’ve never met. I want to go on living even after my death!

And that’s why I’m so grateful to God for having given me this gift, which I can use to develop myself and to express all that’s inside me!

When I write I can shake off all my cares. My sorrow disappears, my spirits are revived! But, and that’s a big question, will I ever be able to write something great, will I ever become a journalist or a writer?”

— The Diary Of A Young Girl by Anne Frank

For someone who have been tortured badly by the Nazi’s  & still can say:

“Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart.”

That’s a great writer you have there & though she may not be able to live this long to see her writing being turned as a book, read by millions of people & touched them. I know that if she did, she’d know that she have indeed become if not a journalist a writer – a great one!

Thank you for reminding me on what writing is all about…

May her life story be an inspirations to others too esp those who is into writing as much as I  did, because to be able to write is a gift,so never stop writing..unless you ran out of ink – but you can still refill it,which in this age – you’ll never ran out of ink when you have blog 😛

… Now where can i buy that book,eyh?

Once Upon A Cork…

When I was in UCC, two years ago – today & it seems like yesterday since I left my Cork-ung (Cork + Kampung).

So, to the Corkians still living there, I would like to say thank you again for giving me the best memory when i was there, for helping me through out those short period that only God can repay everything you all did especially:

* First years of Castlewhite now Second Years (Dentistry,Seasons, D’Nur Jr. , 3 teruna pingitan hahahaha)

*D’Nur, Jannah, Raudhah, Syifa, B & B (something haha lupa nama korangnyer B&B la! )

*The families of: Pja , Glasheen’s (Eilawany & Kak Siti family), Kak Timah, Kak Azma, Kak Zue Apek & Kak Azraa family (And Corkians babies!!!)

* Newly weds: K.Nang, Aina Jeffry, Farrah Dayana, Fatim huda,Anida…err sape lagi eh yg dah kawin @ nak ikut jejak diaorg? hehe (not me certainly!!)

* House of wilton (yg slalu jadi tmpt Bazaar Ramadhan hehe), 63,75, & sebelah dia sebab tu rumah K.Aina & housemate tapi tak ingat dah nombor, ingat dekat dgn kedai Farash je hehehe K. Ju? K. Milah?

*And people who may know me there but i can’t remember their name compared to their face hehe..

With the coming Eid , I would like to wish all of you (including the blog readers)….

~Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin~

*Since most of the ‘Irish’ visitor to my blog is from Ireland hehe you know who you are (“,)

p/s: Maap la, cheq takleh nak balik “Cork-ung” tahun nie hahahahahahahah =P

With Warm Wishes,

-Sakiinah –

Thank you :)

Since most of you come pretty much all over the world, so allow me to thank each and one of you in your language:

Germany > Danke!

Ireland > Go raibh maith agaibh!!

Holland > Dank U!

France > Merci!!

US > Thanks??

Japan > Arigatou!!

Spain > Gracias!!

Korea > Kam sa mi da!!

and of course

MALAYSIA! – Terima kasih!!


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Well that’s so far i know how to say thanks in these language, the rest is hard to spell tho i have google with me. But  whoever you are, wherever you come from, thank you for dropping by & still coming back reading a stranger’s blog. hehe