Takut (Al-Khauf) dan Penuh Harap ( Ar-Raja’)

Abi shared about not giving up on Allah’s hope even if it seemed impossible to see the outcome.

Tawakkal is having full trust and believe that Allah swt is powerful over everything and that we must never give up on the blessings (rahmat) of Allah swt. Even in darkness we must continue to have faith in His plan and timings .

Even in darkness we must continue to have faith in His plan and timings. And take every chances and time we have by being there for each other

Alhamdulillah, even though it has been more than a month our beloved Um was hospitalized and have passed 2 weeks in ICU. We will strive to remain hopeful of Allah’s mercy and love towards Um and our family.

Although there were times we felt broken and shaking, fearing of the unknown and yet hoping for the best. We will continue to believe that Allah swt hears our please and endless doa from those who prays for Um together with us.

We are deeply touched by everyone who came, text, support and help in ways we never expect.

We are happy to know one of Um’s last Phd student passed his viva last week and made solat hajat for her well being. He came and visit both before and after his viva, praying for Um’s well being. Its through him we found out Allah swt have made it easy for him through Um’s effort getting him to do his viva before she was hospitalized. Um have transferred all her students to another supervisor as she retires. And that have made it easy for them to continue their study under a better supervisor she trusts.

Old friends and relatives came to visit endlessly for the past week, even some recovered from Cancer, ICU previously shared their experience that helped to strengthen us. We are not always strong but Allah swt sent each one of us to make each other strong. Alhamdulillah.

We believe Allah swt will also hears us and everyone she touches in her life and we ask all of you the same towards Um’s journey. All of us is afterall in a journey back to Allah swt but how we respond to each steps we take in the journey will make a difference as long as we fear Allah swt but not make us doubt and lose hope on Allah swt, The Most Merciful, The Listener, The Most Loving, and The One and Only.

Indeed this journey is not Um alone but us all in this together.

“So which of the favor of Your Lord do you deny?”

Bismillah, 2019

I learnt to walk at my own pace,  that its okay if I don’t own a car,  grab kan ade 😆

It’s okay,  if I don’t have my own house,  I still have my own room, a home and family to come back to.

Its okay if I may not 100% financially independent yet but at least I’m debt free.

Sometime we are too busy looking at other peoples progress in life,  but we forget to look back at our own progress.

A friend reminded me that although I may not think that I am successful but to my friends – I am living their dream job. Although I may not notice this,  she said I have been taking small steps that led me to where I am now.  That in itself is an accomplishment – which was very personal to me,  as I struggle to be content with the detours and whatever comes my way.  Being happy is a choice I make everyday and try to see things positively.

Sometimes things don’t go our way because God wants us to take us to a different path,  laid only for us,  we alone can go through that journey. Sometimes,  its also to protect us from harm that we may come across if we take the wrong path. Sometimes,  its the only way to grow because there are lessons that we need to learn and master first before becoming an expert at our chosen path.

Everyone was born for a particular purpose , we don’t really have to think too much on our purpose and keep the rest of our worries for Him. Whatever happens,  it have been written for us even before we were born.  All we have to do is continue living the best we can and live our life one day at a time.

So use wisely the 24 hours we have each day for it may also be the last day on earth.  Jodoh,  Ajal,  Maut semua ditangan Allah swt.  So it is best to treat each day as the first and last day on earth. Only then,  all the trivials,  egoism and whatever unnecessary drama can be removed from us.

Start focusing on our own self growth , care for our own health and as muslim,  we are the Caliph… So take care of ourselves,  family,  and environment. Everyone is a steward of the earth, we may not change the world but if each one of us can make small changes in how they care for their environment,  will make a big impact to the world around them.

The only competition is ourselves… But don’t beat ourselves up just because we are not there yet,  take a break and look how far you’ve gone. Small steps adds up to the bigger things in life …one day we will arrive to where we were meant to be but until we stop trying to force thing to go faster,  learn to slow down and Master our unsettling heart with patience by accepting our shortcomings. There is no shortcut in success, no baby can instantly run after being born,  we need to learn how to fall to learn how to get up again,  and success is a quiet path…

Like a seed that grows root before it becomes a tree.  Bagaikan buah kelapa,  campak ke laut menjadi Pulau. Seribu guna dan manfaatnya 😆

Happy New Year everyone,

May we continue to become better than last year,  may our prayers accepted and our life protected from any harm…also our health and suffice us with His rizq and mercy over us when we make mistakes.  May Allah swt lead us back to His path should we forget Him and remind us in the softest way possible that is not too hard for us.  May Allah swt ease our journey and strengthen our heart in whatever challenges written for us.

God bless.

Save Bo Kaap heritage petition


Two years ago, I stayed almost a month to interview some of the Cape Malays in Capetown, South Africa about their heritage and history

If you have not heard of the Cape Malays, they are a group of Malays exiled to Cape of Good Hope (Now Capetown) in the 16-17th century from the Malay Archipelago (Nusantara). More than 360 years later, the Malay descendants still thrives on and created their own community especially in Bo Kaap, located in the heart of Capetown and the Table Mountain as background.

You can read my posts via VOCKET


And read the rest of three posts via the website on Cape Malay food, culture and language I wrote while I was there.

I’ve also given a talk about my research outcome last September at the National Museum (Muzium Negara) , Malaysia if you would like to listen

This is not about me, but about our ‘forgotten ‘ brothers and sisters, probably ancestors who is currently under threat due to the continous discrimination and attempts to turn and ‘developed’ Bo Kaap.

Historically, Bo Kaap and District Six (already demolished and left as empty lot during the Apartheid) were the early Malay settlements after they were released from prison and slavery due to the Apartheid. Not only they were oppressed by the Colonial during the 16-17 th century (though a few well known ulama like Shaykh Yusuf Macassar were well respected). But many were forbid and oppressed from practicing Islam openly, forced not to speak their native language – Malay Language and change the socioeconomy of the Cape Malays who were very creative and skilled artisan, fisherman, builders into a poor and displaced to a far away location during the Apartheid through District Six demolition.

Despite all the oppression , their Deen remain steadfast and Islam spread to almost half of Capetown population are muslim thanks to the dakwah made by the Malay hafiz, ulama who set up mosques and Islamic school which used to teach Muqaddam, and Jawi too (though by now Arabic were used more and the Jawi writings remains only as manuscripts by the early writers)

Therefore, I humbly request help from all of you here regardless if you are Malay or not to help the Cape Malay in Capetown to preserve & protect their heritage town, Bo Kaap , South Africa. You can read their petition before deciding if you can help sign and contribute to the petition.

Fyi, the President of Melayu and Cultural Heritage Society, Abdullah Waggie is setting up another Islamic school that he founded Ieglaasi Nieyah Primary School at a new location, which the society plans to set up a mini museum which will also collect and display Malay manuscripts in Capetown, written by the Cape Malays (some were in Jawi writings!)

I hope by sharing this post will help reach more people who might be able to help them in protecting their heritage and history from being destroyed like what happened to District Six. Therefore, every little help, would mean a lot to the Cape Malays there who unfortunately, is a minority within minority.

If you have been following my writings on my research last two years on the Cape Malays history and heritage, here’s how you can help.
The Cape Malays need all the help they can to support their cause preserving & protecting their heritage ‘kampung’ , Bo Kaap , located in the heart of Capetown , South Africa.

Other helps are also welcomed, contact me if you would like to contribute further. Thank you for taking the time to read.



Freelance researcher

Click this link to help them:   Save Bo Kaap

Bicara @ Muzium, Melayu Merentasi Samudera: Capetown

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Thank you Jabatan Muzium Negara especially Muzium Etnologi Dunia Melayu for inviting me to this talk, it was a pleasure to be able to share my research on the Cultural Heritage of the Cape Malays in Capetown. Who would have known that from that one decision to visit Capetown lead to this, also thanks to The Vocket for publishing my articles on my visit to Capetown (x) , South Africa.

Also to some of the media for covering the event , namely:


and later KOSMO some time next week.

For those who would like to read my paper, you can download it via this link (x)

After the the talk, I met a Cape Malay whose family migrated to Malaysia in 1960. At the time Tunku Abdul Rahman, then the Prime Minister of Malaysia invited the Cape Malays to move to Malaysia to build up the nation (prior to Malaysia’s 1957 Independence) She now speaks fluent Malay but still retains her Capetonian English accent with her. She said there was already Cape Malays from Capetown who migrated earlier than their family, one of them married to a Perak Royalty.

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My grandmother is a loyal supporter of umno. She’s in her late 70s by now maybe 80 plus I lost count how old is she. Her only source of news was the mainstream media (then), she doesn’t go on social media, her time is only for praying, Quran, Surau and TV, if not watching her garden everyday.

Her memories of umno was when people fight for independence, when leaders step up to lead because someone had to. When people actually do their job and not fight for money etc. A true blue BN-Umno.

Even when Reformasi happened, she strongly have faith in the ruling party then. Even some of her children did not, and endlessly insist we should oppose too. We stood by her, even if we were the only one still supporting the ruling party then.

One day, my grandmother asked me, is it true what people say about Tun M ? Is he getting senile? Is he crazy to want to change the government?

I knew then that those are the words only a mainstream media would plant in the viewers mind, she could not have picked up anywhere else because she’s mostly at home.

I gave a sigh, and answer, I don’t know Tok, I don’t know. In her eyes, I saw tears and worries, I don’t know Tok, I really don’t know – back then.

Even when the election day came, I worry more for her because she is very old and may not be able to handle the harsh truth. When I called after the sworn in, I try to keep our conversation light, until she herself answers

“Maktok tidur awal, takut darah naik”

(I slept early, worried if my blood pressure rise)

Im sorry Mak Tok, you live to see this, I just hope you are as healthy as our Prime Minister.
And that Malaysia is in good hands even if its painful for you to accept the changes (truth).

As time changes, so did we. Only after Tun M steps up and walked out of the party as the ruling party then, refuse to change. I start to read more of the other side of the story, think through and made my decision.

I never felt the need to vote until now, as much as I wish there would be changes from within. I wasn’t even sure if I made the right decision but I have faith that, if God wills it, nothing that people do can stop the changes from happening. And so kun fa ya kun, it happens.

With or without my vote, change will happen because the majority of voters that came out were more than what expected. And change must happen not just the government but among ourselves, instead of relying on the government – yet again to change.

We grew up with umno and also… today’s government, but all of us remain one – Malaysian.

Whoever we support, let this not stop us from being good towards one another. And, please stop bickering about the things people do in the past. Just because that person is powerless, doesn’t mean we should freely harass and throw mean words at them and anyone related to them.

We are all flawed in so many ways, lets just move on and try to get along with each other. We are after all, a very small country, and if we are going to stay long, we must learn to get along. At the end of the day, we are all coming back to the same home, Malaysia.




Merdeka 2.0!

If you asked me years ago,  I would not have voted or aware how important it was to vote.  But for the first time,  I felt the need to vote for my country and be part of the change we want to see.

Some of my friends in Indonesia and other Malaysian friends  living abroad was following the news closely.  Keeping in touch to make sure we are safe , instead I reassure them that with such a strong led coalition like Harapan,  there is still hope that a peaceful change can be made.

For some reason,  some of the news I was following online was not able to connect online , the mainstream media was delaying so much with commentaries and my concern friends from neighboring country was helpful enough to update me with the current SPR result.

Even voting itself feels like going to an examination and waiting for the results on the same day felt like the longest night.

Finally when the once Prime Minister of Malaysia appeared in his black songkok and baju melayu,  with sampin being sworned in,  everyone felt relief.

15 years later,  I get to watch this historic event and be part of it.  It does feels a bit like Merdeka eh?

For friends outside Malaysia who is still absorbing the news,  we also didn’t know we could do this and how everyone could come together for one common thing, our love towards our country,  Malaysia

All I can say,  we voted for a better Malaysia regardless our differences, we have each other to make the changes.

Meanwhile,  this means, you are never too old to dream a new dream, even becoming PM again. Lol!

Its definitely the, M factor… M…for Malaysia. Thank you Malaysian for making your choice, whoever you voted for,  I hope we choose the best among our leaders in restoring the country to a better state than it was.

To those who lost their vote,  I hope that you will still do good for the community around us… With or without power,  we all have the power to choose to do what is good for the benefit of the people we live with and not just ourselves. A true leader is, when they are not in power,  they can still lead people to goodness and bring benefit to others with whatever they are able to contribute. May this does not stop us from being a better person and continue to grow in the future.

May God protect our country and bless us with better leaders and unite us against all odds.   🇲🇾 ♥


Bukit TI

Since quitting my job, I have been spending most of my time at Bukit TI , a small hill infront of School of Industrial Technology in University Sains Malaysia. What started as volunteer basis, turn out to be a pretty cool job to work with.

Initially, the works there started of as my dad’s research project on composting and expanded to Vermicomposting. Then, they run out of space to use their compost and look for space to grow their plants – so his Graduate Intern’s then Hamzah and Syahidah found an empty space just above their school rooftop. So after getting the permission from the Dean, the Rooftop Wild Garden was born.

Since 2014, the rooftop grew into a space full of over 100 herbs and plants , some aquaphonic system and vertical farming using recycleable items. Somehow they cross path with Dr Zulkifli Mustafa , who was doing research on the Stingless Beee @ Kelulut by rearing the Kelulut bees. He trains farmers and the public to rear using sustainable bee farming via his Mustafa Hive design. That pretty much match what we are doing right now, which is making compost to grow plants that can build an ecosystem for the Kelulut Bees to make their hive. So the Kelulut hive was installed and encourage the pollination of the plants on our Rooftop Wild Garden as they get enough food source from the plants we grow.

At the same time, we also experimented on rearing Black Soldier Fly Larva and Dubia for animal feed. Other than that, we also grow Azolla – an aquatic water plants that can be grown easily and use as animal feed that is rich with protein and healthier options as it is a plant based.

So again, bigger space needed and so ECOPRO@USM team as the research group is known as proposed for the small hill in front of School of Industrial Technology to grow a Green technology Garden where it can be turn into a Community Garden for the campus community and public to come and learn about all the things we learnt and applied since we started the research project.

Later on, we started to introduce the project for the students about what we do at Bukit TI and some students started messaging on how they can be part of the community garden we are working on. After all, we are not just growing plans but applying an Ecosystem Design Restoration via Permaculture method we learnt in a Permaculture Design Course earlier. So we decided to open it for Volunteers to help us at Bukit TI and trained them every week on how they can grow the plants and restore the ecosystem at Bukit TI.

I was really surprised and amazed by their passion in volunteering and learning from us, though only a small bunch of students who came but they were very excited to spend their time despite their busy schedule at Bukit TI. Some even helped out when we were away for research visit and look after the garden.

What started as just a research project, turns out to become a community project that became an important step for the environment. We don’t talk about climate change now, we became the change we want to see in this world.

So if any of you wants to know more about what we do, visit our FB page and we will share with you   :

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